DREAM (((click & cite)))

DREAM = 01/01/2008

I am sure I had a series of various dream scenarios last night (or this morning) but I don’t recall any of them except for one in particular… I dreamed that I was in the hospital getting some tests done. The medical doctors had done another MRI (x-ray) of my brain to monitor the progression of the Multiple Sclerosis I was diagnosed with in 2004. However to all of our surprise, upon reviewing the data the doctors could not find any conclusive evidence in support of me having the dis-ease. I was shown the x-ray film and as the doctor pointed out to me what he interpreted, I was in awe. I asked him – How could that be so? What about all the conclusive evidence that the doctors had found when I was initially diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis? The doctor explained that I had probably been mis-diagnosed and that oftentimes symptoms and even MRIs can show what seems to be evidence of a particular dis-ease - when in fact it is no such thing. After having heard my account of all the various changes I had experienced in the past around the time in which I had been mis-diagnosed, the doctor then explained to me that what was shown on my MRI in the past was probably an illustration of the effects of stress upon my brain and body during that time. Whatever it was – it was no longer there. I was amazed and in my mind it was hard for me to believe the good news. I responded with – But the doctor before that had diagnosed me with M.S. had taken a lumbar puncture and had told me that there was evidence in my spinal fluid to support me having the disease… Maybe another lumbar puncture should be taken to make absolutely sure the dis-ease was in fact not there…? And then my conscious mind came to the forefront in the dream and I asked myself… That needle in my spine had hurt something awful! Did I really want to go through all of that again? Why could I not just believe what was apparently not shown on the MRI?

And that’s all I recall of the dream…

~i.

INTAKE (((click & cite)))

INTAKE = 01/01/2008: fried chicken-?!?

• Water with lemon juice


• Water mixed with small amount of orange Gatorade


• Sweet red wine


• 2 navel oranges


• Snap peas / green beans


• Baked Sweet potato


• Fried chicken
  

aiight- yeah.
so - i don't know whut the hell...!
here i am - a supposed VEGAN - and i am eating fried chicken - ?!?
right.

i went over to visit, my gyrl k.j. she cooked. i ate. and it was good as hell... it was! even still - i don't see me falling deeply into those old ways of eating again... no. not at all! and i know it's crazie to start the new year doing something so haphazard... but - whatever!

it is what it is.
it aint what it aint.

i'm not gonna beat myself up cuz of it.
besides - i'm Black - right?
ain't Black Folk supposed to eat krapp - ???
(joke)

~i.

IAYAALIS - The Name

The MuthaQueen Cyphr

MuthaQueen Cyphr Music (logo)

“Queen Mother

is a title reserved for a widowed queen consort
whose son or daughter from that union is the reigning monarch.
The term has been used in England since at least 1577.”
~Wikipedia

So - I’ve looked up the word… and I’m kind of wow’d by its meaning and a bit puzzled as to how I’ve managed to gain some personal relativity to it. Presently gaining a full understanding of the word, I cannot honestly say what power within the word “MuthaQueen” inspired me to use it to define my self - and my music publishing company -mind you(!) - But I did. What's done is done.

Now, I know I knew that the term had an English/Anglo-Saxon root, which is one of the reasons why I, an African-American woman, turned the phrase inside out - (or backwards -if you will), to offset some of the word’s Caucasian beginnings. I believe I did so in order to re-create it and make the term a little more applicable to self. But more than anything, I think I knew that several African women of ancient royalty were regarded as being Queen Mothers, and I desired to re-member my Ancestry by adopting the title. After all, I AM a Queen…!!!

But a Mother…?
Well -
not in the actual sense of giving birth to another human…!
But -
I’ve given birth to many thoughts and a plethora of works
(i.e.: music, art, businesses, movements, etc.)
So- in the aspect of my LifeWork in being a Creatrix-
yes(!) …I’m a Mother.

Now, the widow part- well- that’s a stretch…!
I’ve never officially been married (although I’d luv to be one day -God willing!) So I definitely cannot properly wear that hat.

However, if you philosophically take the plight of the Black Man and the Black Woman -in a way- one could almost say The Black Woman could generally be likened to a widow…
I mean, WHERE ARE OUR MEN=???
Rarely, are they with Us.
We feed and support our children - alone.
We might get a past-due child support payment -
but We are the ones to tuck in our sons and daughters to sleep at night… ALONE. So- generally speaking, mind you(!) …the Black Man Is Dead.

Spiritually, I can also link my self to The Divine Principles of Auset and Kali. My studies of Ancient Kemet and my dealings with Ifa has led me to a particular affinity for Auset (Oshun). Africa weeps and moans like the grieving Magdalena over Lazarus not yet risen.

I mean, don’t we ALL await
the return of Ausar…!? And then there’s Kali-Ma, the Hindu goddess who in ecstasy dances upon her consort’s corpse. Only the truly deep-end divers of thought are gonna even catch the connection…
(Widow = Auset = Magdalena = Kali-Ma)

But - I digress...!

The MuthaQueen Cyphr it is...!
A MuthaQueen I am.
and…
I AM that I AM.

~i. / om.

ashe!

ashe! ashe!

for The Word i speak - ashe!

for the song i sing- for the dream i dream- for everything- ashe!

for the fathers- for the mothers-

for the sisters- for the brothers-

for the ancestors- for love-

for peace and prosperity...

ashe! ashe!
for The Word i speak - ashe!
for the song i sing- for the dream i dream- for everything- ashe!
~i. / om.

ASE / (ashe) - [pronounced = "ahh-SHAY"] - is a Yoruba word meaning command, power, and authority. Depending upon the context in which the word is being used, ASE is the ability to make whatever statement you make come to pass or happen. It can also mean the ability to compel nature (animate and inanimate objects) to bend to your will [magick = "What is a Magical Operation? It may be defined as any event in nature which is brought to pass by Will. any act designed to cause intentional change... Every intentional (Willed) act is a Magical act... Magick is the Science of understanding oneself and one's conditions. It is the Art of applying that understanding in action." - Crowley] This type of ASE or power can be either God-given (a power one is born with) or acquired. Aquired ASE can be further divided into categories. There is ASE that is: physically prepared, such as herbs and formulas; passed on psychically, via touch, swallowing of objects, a gaze, or other methods; developed through austerities, observances of fasts and penance; regular practice of a particular process or routine or potent ritual (religion), such as chanting a sacred name or like the regular worship of one's Orisha [a spirit which reflects one of the manifestations of Olodumare (God) in the Yoruba spiritual or religious system. Generally speaking ASE could be in the form of the spoken word, the nature of an object, the aura that an entity possesses, or anything peculiar to a certain character.